I'm not longer alone

In my life there's been no one like him. Anywhere, anywhere where he is. If he asked, I'd be his...In my life, there is some who touches my life. Waiting near, waiting here...

I remember those first days together, when you claimed you were sure you loved me more than I loved you. I will admit that at some point I believed you, and grew scared. I didn't want you to love me more, I wanted to love you just as much, but what if I wasn't capable of such love? 

What a naive little peanut I was.

In my life there has been so many tough decisions. Tough for me because I tend to over analyze and predict the worst possible outcome. And because, just like everyone else, I get lost in life sometimes. Being like this has filled me up with doubts. Every decision is a struggle. You saw it when I tried to make any decision regarding my future Master. I'm aware this makes me somewhat indecisive. And because of that I have chosen things I thought I wanted, and I had so many other precious things go because I thought I didn't need them. But time passed by and allowed me to realize how wrong I had been. 

But I have learned. And if being with Ferdinand taught me something, was to understand how I never want to feel ever again. I understood how being in love might blind you, and how only time can really help you understand a person.

Today at work I said I was sure I was gonna end up marrying you and they got startled at my certainty. And it's almost ironic how the single most important decision I had made yet: the one involving the one person I'm gonna share the rest of my years with, is the easiest one.

We were thinking about marriage just weeks after we started dating. And even back then I said yes, I just knew how the love of my live was right there waiting for me, bursting like the music of angels, the light of the sun. And I felt how my life seemed to stop as if something was over and something was scarcely beginning, and how I soared through a world that was new that was free. 

This much happiness, this much certainty is so new to me. and I find myself with the biggest smile stretched all over my face when I think about being with you forever. Fuck the courthouse, and fuck the church. I don't need them to know that our love is real and everlasting.

I'm so happy to share all the years ahead of us with you, my one true Monkey.

I love you more than I ever loved before. More than I thought I could.

♡

Fighto!

✧We have our nose piercings on different sides
✧You have curly hair, mine is straight
✧You are a puppy, I'm a kitten
✧You like terror, I'm a scaredy cat
✧You like working out at home or outside and by yourself, I wish someone went to the gym with me
✧You wanted kids, I didn't
✧You drink tee, I like coffee
✧You are always warm, I'm always cold
✧You prefer hard liquor, I rather drink beer
✧You like Elementary, I'm a Sherlock fan
✧You are the biggest geek, I'm a different breed of nerd.
✧You usually sleep less than 8 hours, I can only sleep more than 9
✧You have ADD, I love organization
✧You love to eat spicy food, I'm the worst Mexican
✧You have always been comfortable with commitment, I had an anxiety attack
✧You always wash your hands, I'm lucky if peer pressure makes me do it
✧You have the cutest legs, I have the cutest shoulders
✧YOU SNORE AND I DON'T
✧But, I drool and you don't... as often
✧We are from different countries
✧Our mother tongue is not the same
✧You are from the 80's, I was born in the 90's
✧Your family is weird and "alternative, my family is as plain as it can be
✧You buy me things, I make you things
✧You love to sing,  I love to dance
✧You tend to like, my nature is to hate
✧...You love ME, and I love YOU


There are a lot of things that make us opposite, but all of our differences are so easily dismissed when we compare them to the things we share. I didn't need more than a couple days with you to tell that we shared what was actually important. Sharing the same points of view on difficult subjects, feeling the same way about humanity and life and having so much respect and love for each other make every single difference or problem completely tiny. There is no obstacle we can't tackle, and while doing so the thought of breaking up doesn't even crosses our minds. We are in this together -Like High School Musical said.

We are halves of an orange. And we fit, even if we have our seeds in different places.
I couldn't be happier with someone else. You share my opinions and yet you make me grow by being unique and liking different things.
I love you, Count
♡