I Ramen You

I just got you the tiniest, cutest Ramen earrings <3 

This past weekend with you was in-fucking-credible, bebeh. I really had an amazing time, delicious nomis, and all the sunglasses and pluggis in the world! It sorta made me realize... made me want to have money to splurge on you. To buy you tiny things, and spontaneous presents, and make my Monkey smile. 

I will someday, you know? Is on my list of things to do, along with planning how the fuck I'm going to retire... but that is another story, mah friend.

Anywho, I can only try my best right now and get you tiny Ramen earrings. And even if you argue and claim you don't need shit from me, well I'm writing this to let you know I don´t give a single sad rat's ass fuck. Imm spoil the life outta you, gorgeous face.

I know I don't need to spend anything to make you smile, buh I wanna! And secretly I know you wanna too! Mehbehs :*

And talking about money, I love how you say that now that we are married what's yours is mine and viceversa, even if it's a joke. Even if I don't want that, I like when you say it. I don't know. I guess it reminds me you are aware that you're stuck with me for pretty much all your fucking life ☺

I love you!
Thank you for that amazing weekend, and all the other ones you had given me. For the time, attention and effort you put into every minute we are together
I can't wait to see you again, I miss you so!

♡

Vows

      

Marriage to me has always been just the word that means one is making official the willingness to share one's life with another being. 

I have never considered marriage to be difficult, at least on a day-to-day basis. I get that there are tough decisions to make from time to time, but we will cross that bridge when we get there. 

Other than that, marriage should be the most comforting thing in the world. Because I'm not only choosing a partner, I'm choosing a life-long teacher, and student; I'm choosing a roommate, my personal nurse, and my own amateur masseur; I'm choosing a chef, my new favorite news anchor and a speaking diary. I'm choosing an accountant, a 24/7 computer technician, and a shrink. I'm choosing someone with different tastes, hobbys, and opinions to enrich my life. I'm choosing the weirdest movie critic, the biggest Transformers collector, and the happy owner of the biggest collection of nerd parafernalia I've ever known. 

So, coming home everyday to interact with this human being, should be the easiest, most satisfying thing in the world. 'Cause I'm just choosing to marry my best friend who listens to me and makes me feel loved, who shares the same, if not better, view of the world, who encourages me to be the better version of myself and still loves the bad parts. 

The only thing left to say is: Thank you Mom and Dad, for giving me life, and for all the opportunities you struggled to offer me. Thank you Sunny and Paul for raising such generous, polite, gentle and weird individual. I also want to thank all our family and friends, and people who somehow marked us and made us who we are. And finally, thank you Cody. Thank you for all the years shared and the ones yet to come. Thank you for all the unwavering love, and for making this marriage the happiest thing that has happened in my life.

I love you

♡

I'm not longer alone

In my life there's been no one like him. Anywhere, anywhere where he is. If he asked, I'd be his...In my life, there is some who touches my life. Waiting near, waiting here...

I remember those first days together, when you claimed you were sure you loved me more than I loved you. I will admit that at some point I believed you, and grew scared. I didn't want you to love me more, I wanted to love you just as much, but what if I wasn't capable of such love? 

What a naive little peanut I was.

In my life there has been so many tough decisions. Tough for me because I tend to over analyze and predict the worst possible outcome. And because, just like everyone else, I get lost in life sometimes. Being like this has filled me up with doubts. Every decision is a struggle. You saw it when I tried to make any decision regarding my future Master. I'm aware this makes me somewhat indecisive. And because of that I have chosen things I thought I wanted, and I had so many other precious things go because I thought I didn't need them. But time passed by and allowed me to realize how wrong I had been. 

But I have learned. And if being with Ferdinand taught me something, was to understand how I never want to feel ever again. I understood how being in love might blind you, and how only time can really help you understand a person.

Today at work I said I was sure I was gonna end up marrying you and they got startled at my certainty. And it's almost ironic how the single most important decision I had made yet: the one involving the one person I'm gonna share the rest of my years with, is the easiest one.

We were thinking about marriage just weeks after we started dating. And even back then I said yes, I just knew how the love of my live was right there waiting for me, bursting like the music of angels, the light of the sun. And I felt how my life seemed to stop as if something was over and something was scarcely beginning, and how I soared through a world that was new that was free. 

This much happiness, this much certainty is so new to me. and I find myself with the biggest smile stretched all over my face when I think about being with you forever. Fuck the courthouse, and fuck the church. I don't need them to know that our love is real and everlasting.

I'm so happy to share all the years ahead of us with you, my one true Monkey.

I love you more than I ever loved before. More than I thought I could.

♡

Fighto!

✧We have our nose piercings on different sides
✧You have curly hair, mine is straight
✧You are a puppy, I'm a kitten
✧You like terror, I'm a scaredy cat
✧You like working out at home or outside and by yourself, I wish someone went to the gym with me
✧You wanted kids, I didn't
✧You drink tee, I like coffee
✧You are always warm, I'm always cold
✧You prefer hard liquor, I rather drink beer
✧You like Elementary, I'm a Sherlock fan
✧You are the biggest geek, I'm a different breed of nerd.
✧You usually sleep less than 8 hours, I can only sleep more than 9
✧You have ADD, I love organization
✧You love to eat spicy food, I'm the worst Mexican
✧You have always been comfortable with commitment, I had an anxiety attack
✧You always wash your hands, I'm lucky if peer pressure makes me do it
✧You have the cutest legs, I have the cutest shoulders
✧YOU SNORE AND I DON'T
✧But, I drool and you don't... as often
✧We are from different countries
✧Our mother tongue is not the same
✧You are from the 80's, I was born in the 90's
✧Your family is weird and "alternative, my family is as plain as it can be
✧You buy me things, I make you things
✧You love to sing,  I love to dance
✧You tend to like, my nature is to hate
✧...You love ME, and I love YOU


There are a lot of things that make us opposite, but all of our differences are so easily dismissed when we compare them to the things we share. I didn't need more than a couple days with you to tell that we shared what was actually important. Sharing the same points of view on difficult subjects, feeling the same way about humanity and life and having so much respect and love for each other make every single difference or problem completely tiny. There is no obstacle we can't tackle, and while doing so the thought of breaking up doesn't even crosses our minds. We are in this together -Like High School Musical said.

We are halves of an orange. And we fit, even if we have our seeds in different places.
I couldn't be happier with someone else. You share my opinions and yet you make me grow by being unique and liking different things.
I love you, Count
♡

*Puppy sounds*

I love taking you with me when I drive. I mean, I take you everywhere, but it's when I'm driving when I allow myself to talk to you. I often catch myself answering your hypothetical questions out loud, making tiny sounds or just letting you know where we are going. Just like today, I told you how it was gonna be a big pain in the ass to find where to park and I wasn't sure where we had to go but we would figure it out.

I always do things with you by my side. I go shopping, walk the sidewalks, wonder what you could possibly want from the Oxxo.

I do it invariably. It's the consequence of loving you and missing you so goddamn much. I'm pretty sure you do the same thing. We are the same thing. The same soul. And now we finally put a face to the voice in our minds that always cares, always asks. I got a gorgeous Monkey on the back of my mind to keep me safe and aware, feeling loved and warm, and smiling at all tahms.

I love the tiny Monkey bebeh face, so gorgeous yih. *Puppy sounds*

Ah mua!

♡

ii

I should be writing an essay right now, but is far easier to write to you.

It has only been a week since the last time I left Las Cruces, but it surely doesn't feel like it.

It has been one of the longest weeks I've ever had. I feel I miss you constantly, I feel I need you all the time. I want to be laying next to you in your bed all day. I want to be smothered my your aroma and warm in your company.

I know you're trying to visit soon, and it just not soon enough. I don't even have money to take you out, or money to go visit you more than once, but I don't care. I'd beg for money if that's what it takes to be beside you.

I have a headache. I couldn't sleep properly today and I'm paying for it. My favorite way to cope with it is imagining being in your room. So warm, so cozy, so comfy. Feeling loved and loving you back.

That's is usually the thought that gets me through the days.

I know you have images like that to get you through your own nightmares. I also know you're not having a good day and I hope it gets better.

I love you so much. Beyond belief.

I miss you to the point where I feel I'll suffocate in this air that can't touch you.

I adore you. Forever.

♡

We spin around the same Sun, honey.

HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY, MONKEY FACE ♕!

As soon as you got home, around midnight when the 9th was still young, you said happy anniversary. I know you have been thinking about it as often as I have and that's why I love you!

We shaved together and then you gave me a leggy massage, we sleepis cuddling and I woke you up like a kitty. You told me your weird dream where my favorite restaurant was a generic Chinese restaurant and also a moffler shop. We went to your parent's house and I met your grandma and the kitties. We played Plague Inc on brutal and won 4 tahms. We did laundry and had boneless wings and beer for dinner. It was a non-traditional anniversary but I really enjoyed it... a lot. 

Being here for those 2 weeks made me so happy. I got to be where my bebeh sleeps, where my bebeh looks at me when he calls me. I got to be here for him when he comes back from work. 

I only have 3 days left here and I know I'm going to miss you so fucking much, specially if I don't get to see you again on early January. Starting the year alone is never fun. And I know we are both very happy for making it through this past year, but we are not very enthusiastic about doing it again for 10 more months... that's is everything goes as expected. I know it has been, and will be hard... but oh well, I'm not gonna just stop loving you, am I?

This first year with you was definitely, without a doubt, the fastest year I had ever lived. You make time slips by, 'cause I enjoy myself so much when I get to be around you.

I can wait to accumulate so many years together and be forever by your side. 

I love you, Monkey Pipi. I love your looks, your voice, your cute sounds, your humor, your body, your mind. I love you so so so much. Thank you for being so brave and for never minding the distance. I know it hurts and it's not ideal, but it will be over soon enough.

Love you with all I am, ahmua!

♡